Monday, April 14, 2008

Looong time, no blog.

Sorry that it has been awhile since I have posted anything. I have been having a rough pregnancy, to say the least. I have had all day and night morning sickness, and total exhaustion. All I wanted to do was sleep. I would try to eat, but everything made me sick. I actually lost about 7 pounds. I started getting really worried. But finally I feel better, and I am excited to eat everything :)
But then my doctor tells me, after my ultrasound, that I have "Placenta Previa" She tells me nothing about it except that it means my placenta is attached at the lower part of uterus and is covering the cervix. She tells me that I have to go to a specialist in a few weeks to see exactly whats going on. If it is still as it appears, then I need a C- Section. Which is fine. But of course, in this day in age, all I have been doing is researching it on the internet. Which is a HORRIBLE idea! For any medical research, really. You find the worst of the worst things that could happen. Then I start freaking out and start crying at what "could" happen. I am of course upset, you never want to hear that there is something wrong with your pregnancy. And luckily I have been going back to the secret, which is helping me through it. But it is so hard to think positive when such horrible things may happen. I just keep thinking positive and I started imagining my placenta correct itself. Which, on the internet, I found does happen most of the time. And even though this happens to only 1 in 200 pregnancies, it only stays in about .05% of the pregnancies by the time the baby is born. So that is great news! I just hope and pray that the baby is getting everything it needs through the placenta, and the embilical cord. I know the baby will be fine in my heart. I just have to keep reminding myself that.

In other news, I have not written my gratitute blogs. I have been writing them down in my book though. To help me think about them, and truly be thankful. Of course I am thankful that I have a healthy little girl, and a healthy husband. I am truly thankful that my husband has a job he was born to do...OH speaking of which, we went to a movie premiere of a documentary he worked on. "Hori Smoku" The life and times of Sailor Jerry. One of the most known and pioneering tattoo artists of the U.S. It was at a theatre in center city, philly, and it was really awesome. To see his name on the big screen...WOW. It just makes me melt with how proud I am of him, and of everything he has accomplished in his over 10 years of filming/editing...etc.

So the last thing I want to be thankful for, today, is the 4 hours of Beverly Hills 90210. It's on from 8-12 noon on saturday mornings on the Soap net channel. I look forward to waking up early every weekend just to watch. Even though right now they are on their 2nd year of college..booring, and I hate these episodes when Dylan goes back to drinking and is broke cause his step mom ripped him off....I still watch and think about how we used to talk about this in Jr. High. If you missed an episode, you were totally screwed the next day in class.

I am truly thankful for everything I have in my life. My family, my house, my great friends, my growing business, and the fact that I am alive, healthy and happy. THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU.

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